mississippi river road path
Nice, easy run. Listened to episode 2 of the new S-Town podcast. Enjoyed it, even though I probably would have preferred no headphones, but I had to catch up to Scott before he spoiled the twist at the end of the episode. I think hearing the twist (no spoiler), at the end of my run, made my whole running/listening experience more intense and other-worldly.
For my silence poem, I decided to read over my past log entries. Here are some themes that I noticed:
themes from running log (jan-march)
- restlessness: a need to move
- used to be active, then inactive, then active again
- thinking brain vs. moving body
- confident bodies
- walking vs running….is walking failing?
- what do I think about when I run?
- Best’s Disease
- not over-thinking, over-analyzing (balance)
- breaking bad habits
- fuzziness…what words can I used to describe this feeling of not seeing…being out of it? removed? disconnected
- feel the ground beneath us (pay attention, be present and aware)…winter: icy, slippery, sloppy, cold
- Even as we try to transcend our bodies while running, we are constantly reminded of our limits. We are bodies. We need that reminder to ground us and to keep us from getting too lost in the dreamlike state that running creates. Gardner discusses the dreamlike state in several other entries.
- reminder, not getting lost…ALSO A REMINDER OF DANGER, to be too disconnected is not to hear, be alerted….DISTRACTION…THINK ABOUT THE RUNNER WHO JUST DIED
- to be distracted or not? sometimes noise is necessary, distraction is necessary
- feb 15: 3 stories about the sun
- feb 16: calf injury
- feb 20: discipling (building up) and undisciplining (breaking down)
- goals, joy, speed, competition, being proud of being good (feb 21)
- list of noises heard, feb 26
- distracted running feb 27, feb 28
- march 3 more on sounds
- march 4 noise can drown out distractions, like annoying runners who talk too loudly
- more sounds, march 11
- discipline as reining in my excesses?
- limits and freedom (remember: beside body….still connected to it, but not tied down to it)
- beside each other, where a need to engage and an ache for silence can be met