Some things I learned today at my physical therapy appointment:
- I have a high tolerance for pain, according to my therapist.
- I am particularly proud of the fact that I have a high tolerance for pain and I’m not totally sure why or if I should be proud.
- I have an extra bony anatomy which makes me prone to subluxation of the kneecap.
- My kneecap will probably be partially and temporarily dislocated again. And maybe again after that.
- My first injury almost 2 years ago, was probably not the result of a bone spur, but a subluxation.
- I should not run for the rest of the week.
- I should not run through pain, even though my doctor told me I should.
- My doctor and physical therapist have very different approaches.
- My kneecap is pissed off at me right now. Strangely, I am not pissed at my kneecap. I’m not sure what I feel towards my kneecap. Concern? Love? Acceptance?
- It typically takes about a month to recover from a subluxation of the kneecap.
- Right now, I’m at two and a half weeks. If I have to wait a full month to run again, that would be September 4th, just four weeks before the marathon.
- I might still be able to do the marathon. I might not.
Subluxation: partial dislocation
dislocation of the patella/kneecap
sub (nearly, slightly, partly)
dislocation: disruption, disturbance, disengagement, disconnection
A new fear introduced: subluxation. It could come back, you know. It’s possible this episode was not even the first. Perhaps my injury, a year and a half ago, was two injuries, two separate instances of subluxation?
A sub par performance with no
sub-8 minute miles.
A substitution: speed out, stability in.
Now subject to more delays and derailments.
Submitting to the will of an extra bony anatomy.
Subliminal arguments between my right kneecap and the running path.
Subtraction and Addition: less grip and more gripe.
A subdued soul,
A submerged spirit.
A partial and temporary dislocation.
Out of the groove. The patellofemoral groove.
The fall to leap more groove.
The let a flap or a mole groove.
The poor tall female groove.
The fall poem or tale groove.
The tell a floor map groove.
The late morale flop groove.
The poet, leaf or mall groove.
The located on your femur bone between two bumps (femoral condyles) groove.